Mommy, I want to move to my best friends because you can't give me a brother or sister!

Today was a very trying day. I must say, I actually let my daughter make me cry. She told me she wants to move out because she wants to be with her best friend so her best friend can be her sister she doesn't have. I laughed, and I told her "go pack your bags". DUH...I did not think she would even try and do it. She said "Mommy, I cant reach the clothes on the hangers, can you help me?" I looked at her and said what I always say "really"? She said "yes Mommy, I will come back and visit you sometime and don't worry, you can keep Sweet Angel and hug her when you miss me". Sweet Angel is a bear I gave her when she was little with my voice that says "No matter where you are, near or far, I love you to me the moon." She takes this bear with her when she visits Daddy. I was so upset, I did the normal Mom thing. I called everyone! I requested intervention! lol...However, after I sat down and talked with her, I told her that God has a plan for us, and although I am unsure of what it is, he is going to do what is best for us. She has been talking a lot about having a sibling, and why cant I just GET one. I explain that life doesn't work that way, and to be happy with the family we have. I told her I cant live without her, she is the reason I wake up, smile, and live for each day. She looked at me and said "Mommy, I am sorry, I don't want to move out but I still want to go stay there, okay?". Its moments like these you question your motherhood skills, and wonder what you could do better. Yet, its moments like these that I know I am the best Mommy to her, and do the right things. I just wish she could understand. Being single, I am not out looking for Mr. Right to come swipe me off my feet, and yes it would be nice if I could have another child, and give her the sibling she so wants. YET, I have no control over this issue! The hardest part is knowing how hard it would be in life to grow up without a sibling. Coming from a family of 5, I cant imagine my life without any of them. The fights, the name calling, the good times and bad, the laughter, the memories, its a gift from God I am thankful for everyday.

So, with the day like today, as a mommy, I am taking a deep breath and loving my little one. I wish I had the "magic wand" she thinks all mommy's have that can make things happen. This problem, well the wand wont work!!!